May 4 - 5 , Site: 39
766 Berkeley Avenue
Menlo Park, CA 94025
The physical act of painting invigorates me, especially when I paint large. I love making dynamic, gestural brushstrokes and assertive, juicy scribbles. I love the energy it takes, the risk-taking and “not-knowing” it requires. It forces me to be fearless, and I find that incredibly satisfying.
Lately though, I have started working on smaller compositions, which somehow makes me work more slowly and calmly. There is still a great deal of play and randomness involved, but the energy is different; it is more deliberate and meditative, allowing me to explore a different side of myself.
I'm not exactly sure where my ideas come from. I think my paintings depend on what kind of mood I'm in on any given day. That usually dictates what kind of music I put on in my studio. Then I just paint. The mood dictates my color choices. I may start out with a certain feeling, but after a while, I no longer notice the music. I'm just making marks, letting the painting tell me what to do next.
It would be fair to say that I often start out with "reckless abandon". The next phase often entails a little bit of struggle when I find I’m thinking too much! Some decisions work out great, others, not so much. The trick is to keep on going, keep on learning. In the end, I want a painting where every square inch feels resolved, but where there is still some rawness of feeling and history in its layers.